The end of the year.

And now Its once again that time when the day has come to an end as people sleep and get some rest the next years rolling in.

To all I’d like to bid you a very happy New year too, I hoped that you’ve enjoyed my posts and maybe learned a thing or two about loving one another and rendering service do you true.

Its time to end the year once more and may your blessings be all shared every day and everywhere upon everything you do.

Ahhh the nostalgia of looking back a year.

Goodbye 2015! So much has happened this year and yet it came by like poof!

I finished my first year of college. I’ve read books and got into new fandoms. I’ve fangirled and phangirled. I’ve met new people who have became close to me. My bond with my besties have gotten even stronger. I’ve surpassed challenges. Experienced hardships and anguish. I survived pain and doubt and gotten through my anger. I’ve found more peace within myself and I have gained more faith in my abilities.

The past year I have also turned legally an adult. With my rising age I’m only acting more a child than ever! Okay partly joking XP

I also survived the toughest sem I’ve had yet. Survived the most frustrating professor and played pretty well in a sport. I’ve gotten past some boundaries and have extended my borders.

I’ve learned and I’ve tried and I’ve failed a lot but also succeeded and had many awkward moments as well as happy ones.

So many things have happened. Good and Bad. God loves me so because I gotten so many vlessigs even though I may not be deserving at times.

I’ve met wonderful people who have made their way into my heart. I cherish my loved ones and although there’s drama and hardships and struggles…I am so very thankful for it all. For the lessons I’ve learned and the inspiration, will and strength that come from my loves and God….man I survived the year and am now a little wiser, a little stronger, a little more confident and a lot more comfortable with being myself.

Thank you for my muses. Thank you Lord for the year. The next will be more challenging and difficult but your grace and compassion and Mercy…I know th will not abandon me or leave me wandering alone without guidance. I know th will continue to bless me and guide me and comfort and protect me and my family and friends.

To all my ready God believing or not, I wish you all happiness and peace. May the new year bring joy amidst suffering, success among failure and hope against all odds.

Happy New Year to all!

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On the 3rd day of Christmas…

🎢Hello Phantom readers!!!

For Catholics specifically Christmas ain’t over! It ends when the 3 kings visit baby Jesus 12 days later:)πŸŽ€πŸŽ„πŸŽ€

Christmas surprises here and there, my mom’s cousin visited here with his kids. Nice seeing you again tito!

Thank you for the pamaskoooo^_^

I didn’t know if I should put up a “What I got for Christmas” post but a friend told me to go on and pick up the tradition. I have watched maybe a hundred already videos and read blogs about it and I think it just gives me another chance to say Thank you.😊

I didn’t expect much and what I got was really a surprise and I’m so thankful for em.πŸ™Œ

One particular Christmas gift was as I think I’ve posted on already was my grades.πŸ™πŸ’ƒπŸ’ͺ

Thank you God again! Thank you thank you. I got good grades despite the challenging semester I just endured.😭

Can I pleeeaaasseee ask a late Christmas gift? I really don’t want the at professor to teach my section. I won’t be able to handle such stress and anxiety.😩

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Anyways…

Stuff I got for Christmas.πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

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During my class’ Christmas party, one of my besties gave me a gift. Which had CHOCOLATE in it!!! 😍To be exact hazelnut chocolate. Thank you Love! I ate it right away but yummm I can still imagine the taste. Hahahaha

It also had a notebook I didn’t look at til Christmas day. It was a monthly planner thing that I could use for home or something. Thank you Rea:)😘

My mom a few days before Christmas came home from work with the exchange gift she received. She didn’t really want it but she asked it with intent to give it to either me or my siblings. What she got was a pink totoro powerbank.😻

She gave it to me and a power bank was something on my wishlist so thank you mommy! Even with an exchange gift you still kept thinking of me and my sibs. I love you.πŸ’žβ€πŸ’•πŸ’–πŸ’—

She also gave me Christmas money, same as my grandma and my Tito who just visited this morning.πŸ’΅πŸ’²πŸ’°πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘

Thanks allllllll!😁

Now I bet it’ll be confirmed that I’m a child hahaha…πŸ˜„

My sis gave me a descendants magazine and it made me squeal.πŸ˜† I loved the movie and the songs and I plan to buy the isle of the lost book. I just love Disney and I just love mal!πŸ™Œ

She also gave me a Big Time Rush tee with matching baller that also matches the album she got me for my debut.😽

She also regift me these shoes she got and she loved those shoes. They’re airwalk and plaid pink. And…my size. I’ve asked it from her for a while now and she didn’t budge. She insisted shed grow into them but on Christmas she gave them to me and I love you Margeaux. Thank you!!!βœŠπŸ‘ŸπŸ‘ŸπŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€

On top of that she got me a very cute baby pink colored wallet.πŸ˜πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ’ž

I had needed a wallet πŸ‘›soooo badly and my sis. Thank you you even got it in my favorite colors shade. Uhhhgggg!!!πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

Going to noche buena in my grandma’s sis’ house. We ate-a lot(I ate trice before 12πŸšπŸ—πŸ–πŸπŸ΄)there and stayed up til 12am Christmas day and had gift distributed and opened.

From said owner of the house and my Tito and their daughter, I got a hair brush collection which, funny thing, I was planning to buy that same thing for a gift and/or me but in a different color but thankfully I didn’t.😺

>Btw ill try inserting pictures but I’m not quite familiar of the controls using mobile so th lovely readers may need to use lots of imagination.<

The collection had a comb, a big round brush and a normal curved back one all marble blue color. Thank you Tita ging, Tito zaldy and ate crizza.

Early December my aunts and uncles from the US sent a box over and I got a trio lip gloss kit from Max studio as well as two bralettes *trying not to blush but I’m a girl so ehπŸ˜³πŸ˜‚πŸ˜…* from old navy, a white and a tan colored one. Thank you guys!

Lastly from my real aunt. Tita means aunt but every family member older can ether be Tita or ate in a Filipino family. So my moms sis and her girlfriend got me some shoes. Black sneakersπŸ‘ŸπŸ‘Ÿ that are with white random lines as design. I’ve worn them already and they were sooooo comfy.☺ Thank you Tita barbs and ate josette

I always need new shoes and speaking of…while Christmas shopping last Dec 22, I bought some ballet inspired flats which I had wanted for a year now and its just in black with the garter up front that makes an X and its comfy enough and I love it. 😍😍😍❀❀❀

Ill use it for school because I’ve worn out my black flats. πŸ‘ πŸ‘ 

Also with Christmas money Dec 23, I bought myself a new school planner.πŸ“’ I try my best to use them until the dates they finish and I was successful last semester. My planner is just sterling executive diary. It’s awesome. Plain. No nonsense, plenty of space, great paper, good overview of the year and individual months. I love it. It encourages me to write in it and use it.

Bonus! It has math equations and stuff at the back and it has side pockets! Sweeeeeet!πŸ““πŸ“•πŸ“—πŸ“˜πŸ“™πŸ“šπŸ“”πŸ“‘πŸ“’

With the rest of my Christmas money I plan to buy a clothes dresserπŸ‘•πŸ‘–πŸ‘—πŸ‘™πŸ‘š, renew my National Bookstore loyalty cardπŸ’³, get my nailsπŸ’… done and just save up. πŸ’°πŸ‘

I am so grateful for the unexpected blessing and I am touched for the people who thought of me. Thank you. I love you guys and I hope you had a great Christmas.πŸ’’

Same to you readers.

Really the best gift was although I wanted to go out Christmas day, stayin home was good because I just spent time with everyone at homeπŸ‘ͺ and my mom πŸ‘©always busy with work. She was able to relaxπŸ’† some and that was my wish for Christmas. πŸŽ„

The holidays aren’t over and I hope everyone gets to spend time with their families and have a good time. For those who received gifts don’t forget to thank the givers no matter what they gave, its the thought that counts and their effort in giving you something will always be worth more than the gift itself. You can’t argue otherwise even if you got an iphone 6. πŸ“±

Merry Christmas and happy holidays and happy new year. Be kind, be grateful be happy! Have a great day guys.Β 

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Family problems

Hello people of the internet.

It has been a rollercoaster of experience these past few days. Some big things are happening in my life right now.

To start it off, my parents don’t live with each other. They separated when I was 3, but they aren’t divorced. It isn’t allowed in the Philippines. We only have annulment and legal separation.

Anyways, through the years, my father with the helpful nudge of attornys every now and again, reluctantly gave a share to my siblings’ tuition. Which really isn’t a lot because both my siblings are honor students. They both rank number one in their respectful grade levels.

My father (after the annual fight every Philippine summer) also gives us school supplies from the mini store of my aunt on his side.

Basically that’s his entire contribution for the three of us yearly. According to the law, that isn’t enough but since we have had financial problems for years, we never pushed through on hearings that would force him to properly support us.

But….last two weeks ago, my father made a stand refusing to pay even the little he already does. He blasted off so many lies and told his friends about how he was the one fully supporting us while our mother supposedly did nothing. He called us things as well as insulted my mother through us in a phone call. He said that we were better off not studying or if my mom wanted it so badly, she should take.my siblings out of private school and send them to public school. He said I should get out of my university as well and just go to a public college.

He doesn’t care that we want to receive the best education possible. This wasn’t the first year he tried to push us into changing schools. My mom refused. In all honesty, to get by well in this country, you must study in a private school. That is an advantage later on when you are trying to find work. Also you receive more opportunities in private school, more chances to learn. My father cares not for that.

It would’ve been somewhat understandable if my father was having financial problems too as he claimed. It would be believable if only he didn’t have the latest gadgets or if he wasn’t able to buy that new big flat screen tv or fix up his house and bathroom.

But what really got to me was his insults. I am very protective of my mother. She does everything she can to make us live comfortably. She is the bread winner in the family as well as the bread winner in the extended family with our grandparents and my two aunts who are struggling to find work.

Out of anger at my father having the nerve to talk so badly of my mama, I posted on Facebook. A message that explained everything. It was full of raw emotion, vulgar words and plain old truth. The opposite of this post. I’m A lot calmer and composed.

Everything that had bottled up since I was a child unleashed itself in the form of angry words. I posted it publicly because I wanted to let the people he lied to know what really is the truth.

The post was spun from hurt, frustration, disbelief and the sad feeling of being fed up.

Now my father is angry. Though he is angry about the message and focused on something I said instead of looking at why I said it and what could possibly had been the reason for such an outburst.

He still didn’t get it. I don’t know where this is going but my mother had started talking to an attorney and despite having no funds my mother insists that all three of us will still go to school this coming school year.

I don’t know how my mama is going to do it. Pay for all our tuitions as well as books and school supplies and transportation not to mention food. A lot is on her shoulders.

She refused for me to work though. She said that if I start earning money I may be too excited to still study, I disagree but she insist that I focus solely on studies.

Right now I’m trying to stay positive. Praying for guidance and for my mom. She works overtime and sells a little food on the side. My grandparents have no jobs but derives income from some land we lend out. They help somewhat lessen my mom’s burden though it isn’t really enough.

Everyone is sprung up and I’m losing a little sleep with worrying but the fact that we still have food on our table, a roof over our heads and electricity, water and Wi-Fi. We aren’t being forsaken by the only father I’ve turned to all my life. Despite everything going on, I know we can get through this.

A lot of people don’t believe in God but I’ve seen enough miracles in my life that I believe that there is no doubt someone up there is caring for us.

I’m uncertain of what is to come but I’m not so scared now. Everything I feel, I offer to God. My hurt and pain and anger, everything. As for my father, I offer prayers for him, hoping he could find understanding and maybe peace. I don’t know what to feel for him since our relationship was always strained and after years of being envious of my friend’s relationships with their dads…I don’t know. I’m just going to leave it all to faith and fate.